savner så mange av dere så. vil vite hvordan dere har det, hvordan livene deres ble og blir, vil fortelle dere om meg selv

jeg tenkte jeg egentlig skulle lage en ny blogg men så fant jeg ut at det er vel ikke noen her lengre, og da slipper jeg å stresse med design og alt slikt.

noen ganger så har jeg lyst til å bare ikke være mer.

jeg liker ikke å spise sammen med andre, men i det siste så har jeg begynt å late som jeg er med i en fransk film og det hjelper litt for de har så mange spisescener

comme ca et comme ca

hvis noen sier til meg "du er en av de beste tingene som har skjedd meg" så fokuserer jeg ikke på at jeg er en god ting som har skjedd, jeg fokuserer på "en av de beste". 

most of the time i feel so inadequate. there are several vaguely related words/synonyms i could choose that would encapsulate the feeling equally well. useless. helpless. insufficient. incomplete. pathetic. i just wish i knew stuff. there is nothing i would want more than to be able to delve into a discussion on mythology, about biblical parallels, about how events now and then are connected. religion, history, culture, biology, i just wish i knew so much more than i do cause i feel like i barely know nothing, and i want to be able to follow you, to help you reach your full potential instead of keeping you here, keeping you on this basic level of nothing, of simplicity, of barely good enough. adequate. you deserve more than i can give you, you deserve more than i have time to develop myself into. people get like that from a young age, it's not something you can pick up after years of staying inside, of doing nothing of value. i know i'm not old, i know i have a life ahead of me but i still feel wasted. i still feel like nothing can change, i'm stuck until i'm not, i guess.

i just wish i could be what you deserve

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